I’m 39 years old and feel like I should have taken more chances in my life.  I’m a play-it-safe kind of person.  I don’t want to put myself out there too far because “what if I fail?”

I wish I would have taken a photography class.  I love taking pictures.  I enjoy remembering each experience that I captured on paper.   I wish I would have taken a writing class.  I love writing.  I find myself jittery at times needing to write something, anything but what and then what do I with what I just wrote?  (Thank goodness my friend showed me how to blog.)

I feel it’s too late for me to start something new.  My problem is when I do something (that I want to do) I do it with total focus.  So, once I started having kids I totally focused on them and didn’t have time to do anything that would take away from them.  I took my share of 1000’s of pictures of my kids and journal everyday about everything new they were doing.

…Wait a minute… as I’m writing this blog I’m realizing that I was doing exactly what I was supposed to do at that time and that I still have plenty of time to go into photography and writing.  I needed to focus on my kids completely and as they get a little older and a little more independent I can venture out.  I’m not ready for a career in photography or writing – that might take the fun out of it.  But I am ready for my own blog and maybe the picture that I chose to capture the title will be one that I take.  Hey, baby steps right? 

I’m not going to make myself feel guilty or beat myself up because I “missed out” on something because now I know that I didn’t.  What a relief!  I’m doing exactly what I should be doing at the time I should be doing it – but still dreaming of things to do in my future.  Did ya catch that?

I think I’ll go take an inspiring picture and hopefully it will inspire me to write about it.

5 thoughts on “Inspiration!

  1. I was away from my writing for 15 years. When I first came back, I really lamented how much time I wasted. Recently, I’ve realized that so much has changed about me since then. And so much has changed about the world. What I’m getting out of writing now is totally different that I would have gotten then. If I hadn’t given up writing, I actually would have missed out on the experience I’m having now. Maybe I haven’t lost anything at all. I’ve gained many new things that affect my art. I think my art is better for it.

    1. Sonia, thanks for reading my blog! I think we expect so much of ourselves and make ourselves feel bad but sometimes we just need to let the past be the past and move forward from today! Good luck with your writing, I can’t wait to read some it!!!

  2. hey lady. I’ve been reading your blog for a few weeks and I’m really enjoying it. This one especially. I’ve been struggling with this for a while and am still having a difficult time accepting that where I am, is where I am supposed to be. So, thank you for writing this. Love and miss yall!

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