First off, you can see that I am not doing the Love Dare book each day. I feel that I need to let these things soak in so I am giving them more time to settle in my mind and heart. I’m of course still working on Day 1:Patience. I am pretty good with this at home but when I start driving in my car I have NO PATIENCE. It’s annoying, I must stop.
Day 2: Be Kind – the initiative part was very revealing to me. I was listening to a Pastor this morning and he is explaining “How to prepare your heart”. He brought up
Psalms 10:4 ”The wicked, through the
pride of his
countenance, will not seek after God: God is not in all his thoughts.”
God is telling me through my pride I am holding onto these wrongs of someone. God has been telling me to let it go but let’s get real here, the reason I’m not obeying God and letting these things go is because I feel I know better. WOW! That’s hard to admit but if I’m going to be honest with myself then that’s what it boils down to. I can no longer live like that. I know God wants the best for my life, His plans for me are wonderful, therefore, I must let my leader lead. I must fully trust Him. I have to let those hurtful feelings go. I have to trust that He’ll protect me.
“No weapon that is formed against you will prosper; And every tongue that accuses you in judgment you will condemn. This is the heritage of the servants of the Lord, And their vindication is from Me,” declares the Lord.
I can longer hold on to these hurtful actions of another just to hold it against them later. I have to trust God when He tells me to forgive and move on. I can’t think, “but what if…”. I have to do what Mary, Jesus’ mother, says to do…
John 2:5, “Whatever He says to you, do it.”
She said that because she knew that what Jesus was going to tell them wouldn’t make sense to them but do it anyway.
Here goes…I’m letting it go. I’m trying not to grab it. I’m watching it leave me.
I know this is a process of redirecting my thoughts when the devil wants to bring these things back up to my mind but now I will not dwell on these things anymore. I will stop the devil in his tracks and say “No more.” I don’t owe him the explanation of “I have forgiven this person completely and I no longer hold these things against them. I love this person.”
I’ll be working on this for a few more days.